I remember an OPM SONG which has the lyrics " heto ka na naman kumakatok sa aking pintuan...muling nghahanap ng makakausap" This is exactly related to my entry for this month, I guess a last entry for this month...
Why that lyrics of a song relates to my entry because I am here in front of my NEO (my lappy's name) sharing some thoughts which could help me and my online friends ponder...
I always remember that lyrics whenever I talk to them especially my bessy BBTOTZ. I am really knocking her time out of my stupidity on love, life, career and what ever life will bring...
I love my online friends...I could firmly say that I find them sweet even if we are doing nothing... I find them sweet because they loved to listen to your angst in life...learnt from me a simple computer operations...laughed with me even if I don't have jokes to share with...and most of all understood and stood by me when hypocrites on Pinoy Koneksyon did some stupid things against me.
For now, I guess my online friends are the best thing that I have...especially BEEBBLES, BLOSSOMS, SISSY JOY,. FRANS, KUYA WAFFU,MHYA, KHATE, MAMI CATZ, MAE, ANTIGO and a lot more...( I may have more space to mention all of them but I guess I am so lazy to type not to mention also that I am sleepy by now...)
Being sweet is like being loyal and the respect is there...thank you for being with me guys in our everyday chit chatting...Kahit saang lupalop ng mundo kayo...still we have the same purpose----TO CHAT AND TO CHAT AND TO CHAT.
Kaibigan ko, that's why a bahay kubo is made to let you know that I do care of our friendship....ewan ko lang sa inyo...(lolz) (;bog) (;kill) ko ang hindi...
For now, will take a nap...laglag na mata kow......Love you ALIENZ!
7.29.2011
7.24.2011
LETTING GO (
When the kisses are dry
and the smile is faked
when voices are indecipherable
and happiness is defeated by pain
let it go though it deeply hurts
when truth is ignored
and lies are embraced
when promises are forgotten
and love is lost
let go though it deeply hurts
when caress are not reciprocated
and presence not welcomed
when tears keep coming
and smiles are seldom seen
let go though it deeply hurts
when trust is betrayed
ans selfishness arises
when thoughts are worthless
and passion fades
let go though it deeply hurts
free yourself from the bondage of pain
and gradually bid the past
open your soul to new beginnings
and teach your heart to beat again
and the smile is faked
when voices are indecipherable
and happiness is defeated by pain
let it go though it deeply hurts
when truth is ignored
and lies are embraced
when promises are forgotten
and love is lost
let go though it deeply hurts
when caress are not reciprocated
and presence not welcomed
when tears keep coming
and smiles are seldom seen
let go though it deeply hurts
when trust is betrayed
ans selfishness arises
when thoughts are worthless
and passion fades
let go though it deeply hurts
free yourself from the bondage of pain
and gradually bid the past
open your soul to new beginnings
and teach your heart to beat again
7.22.2011
REFLECTIONS #1
Our self secrets are like a magical silver cup. It grows dull if uncared for, shine brightly if polished and will dazzle when you focus light on them. Just like our characters, if not cared for, nourished and nurtured you will end up criminal along paths of life.
For me to know that I find difficulty in describing myself, we need to ask other people to make aware that we need to change for the better, to discover our weaknesses and the strengths to grow maturely.
I am fortunate enough for God had given me such wonderful people to show my imperfections, to struggle for change and as a child of God, a daughter, a sister,a friend and a servant of Him. These special people will always reside in my heart, whatever the time of the day, whatever the traffic conditions.
For me to know that I find difficulty in describing myself, we need to ask other people to make aware that we need to change for the better, to discover our weaknesses and the strengths to grow maturely.
I am fortunate enough for God had given me such wonderful people to show my imperfections, to struggle for change and as a child of God, a daughter, a sister,a friend and a servant of Him. These special people will always reside in my heart, whatever the time of the day, whatever the traffic conditions.
GOODBYE'S ARE NOT FOREVER
Last night I slept very early because of uneasiness felt . It was an unusual feeling since my EX broke up with me. After a year of not entertaining any love life status, I tried to enter into a relationship which is not as clear as the water in the river. My relationship with him brought me light, happiness and excitement every time I talk to him online. I was indeed very happy knowing that he loves me more than I do... I know its hard falling in love to a person you never saw personally, but goodness to reality I love him so much.
Every morning when I wake up, I always read his text messages on my phone telling me how much he loves me. With all the text messages sent to me, I believed that he really love me. I enjoyed the feeling of being in love. I was happy.
But good things last for a reason you do not know. Maybe because you are too occupied and over shadowed with the feeling and thought of love. I know that love is never letting go, Love has to be true, but most of all, love has to be known amongst each other.
I guess love has millions of definitions because all of us has a different definition of love and is never the same. That's why mine never made to last. It wasn't perfect as I wished and longed for...but I am still thankful I had given myself a second chance. A chance that maybe I will be nourishing and will be perfected.
To you Bhe, I may not be the person you expected for but I can be the person who will cherish and love you, like no other people can do..and I want you to know that you come to love not by finding the perfect person…but seeing an imperfect person perfectly...
Every morning when I wake up, I always read his text messages on my phone telling me how much he loves me. With all the text messages sent to me, I believed that he really love me. I enjoyed the feeling of being in love. I was happy.
But good things last for a reason you do not know. Maybe because you are too occupied and over shadowed with the feeling and thought of love. I know that love is never letting go, Love has to be true, but most of all, love has to be known amongst each other.
I guess love has millions of definitions because all of us has a different definition of love and is never the same. That's why mine never made to last. It wasn't perfect as I wished and longed for...but I am still thankful I had given myself a second chance. A chance that maybe I will be nourishing and will be perfected.
To you Bhe, I may not be the person you expected for but I can be the person who will cherish and love you, like no other people can do..and I want you to know that you come to love not by finding the perfect person…but seeing an imperfect person perfectly...
7.21.2011
HOW DO I LOVE THEE?
How do I love thee with all my heart ?
When you only brought me headaches everyday?
How do I love thee?
When selfishness of your time arises?
How do I love thee?
When you are enjoying with other web friends?
How do I love thee?
When only a simple hi is given to me?
How do I love thee?
When you are but sensitive to the feelings of others?
How do I love thee?
When lies are embraced?
How do I love thee?
When only part of you is known...?
7.17.2011
GOT FRUSTRATED BIG TIME...
I cannot think of any other words...but I was really hurt and frustrated big time...I thought I can overcome things like this... Anyway, bad karma is out there...:( I will be posting more when I am okay...:( for now let it be a thought that we cannot please everybody...
7.15.2011
EWAN
SEATTLE’S BEST MOA…
Di ko maintindihan lately ang nararamdaman ko. Sa sobrang dami ng pumapasok sa utak ko na pakiramdam ko magrarally na sya sa Plaza Miranda. May mga pangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon na di na kayang ipaliwanag kahit ng pinakamatalinong taong kilala ko. (buhay pa po yung taong matalino). Sinubukan ko na rin magpatingin sa espesyalista baka sakaling maibigay nila ang kasagutang bumabagabag sa kaloob looban ng isip ko, ngunit sila man ay bigo rin. Naglakad-lakad ako. Nagmuni-muni at sa haba ng nilakad ko, sa wakas may natisod akong paraan para maipaliwanag ang kaguluhang nagaganap sa utak ko. Sa katunayan di lang isa, kundi isang dosena at isa…
1. hindi dapat hinahanapan ng paliwanag ang mga nararamdaman ng puso dahil ito ay magiging katulad nalang ng sipon na tumutulo kahit na di ka suminga.
2. huwag pagkaabalahan ang sangkaterbang idinidikta ng isip dahil malamang sa malamang magiging kaklase mo si Senadora Santiago at sabihin mo na ring “I lied..hahahha!”
3. itapon sa kawalan ang mga walang kwentang iniisip dahil makakabara lang ito sa daloy ng trapiko sa EDSA.
4. mas makakabuting tumingin sa kawalan dahil nakakapahinga ang utak kaysa tumingin sa harapan na puro kaplastikan ng mundo ang dumaraan.
5. ipikit ang mata kung di ito ginagamit para di agad tumakbo sa utak ang mga nakikita na malamang maging sanhi ng sangkaterbang muta.
6. mas cool ang tumambay ng walang kausap kaysa pumagitna sa huntahang payabangan lang naman ang babagsakan.
7. uminom ng kape na walang asukal para maramdaman ang pait at tumigil ang pag-iisip ng matatamis. (parang walang konek, pero isama na din)
8. sumakay sa aircon na bus at sabay sigaw ng INIT!! Wala na bang ilalakas yan!?
9. humanap ng kausap na kahit na anong sabihin mo wala kang makikitang reaction sa mukha kundi umayon lang sa lahat ng sasabihin mo. (maraming ganyan ngayon)
10. magtulog-tulugan sa jeep para makalimutan ng driver na di ka pa bayad sabay baba.
11. humiga sa gitna ng riles ng mrt para mapansin ka at maka-upo sa wakas.
12. maghanap ng katextmate na walang ginawa kundi magforward ng mga forwarded ding messages.
13. maglub-lub sa ilog pasig at wag na magbanlaw para maramdaman mo kung gaano kabaho sa Pilipinas
natuyo na ang utak ko para na itong lupang inabot ng el nino at di na nagpa-function. Sabi nga ng kaibigan ko, kailangan daw laging hahasain ang utak para di ito kalawangin. Na-imagine ko lang kapag kinalawang ang utak ko, para na din akong dead man walking noon. Hahahhaha!
MORAL LESSON : IWASANG MANOOD NG TELENOBELA DAHIL ISA ITO SA MGA NANGUNGUNANG DAHILAN PARA KALAWANGIN ANG UTAK NIYO.
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