LOVE FORGOTTEN AND LOST

How could I ever win you back? When I tried almost all? How could I ever pay the price when your lips are sealed in silence? My efforts to no vain, my time runs out...my heart is tired and my mind in drought...
Seeing you walk away, I couldn't help but cry but letting you go would be my biggest pride...Though I have your memories, I am sure I will not be missing you ...
I thought there was something to look forward to and I thought there was a special bond between me and you...I tried understanding you and even tried feeling your pains, I opened my heart to your soul and started building dreams...there was bond...there was emotion...there was love...there was denial in your part...

I used to precondition my self to only the good things whenever someone had there was definitely this unexplainable curiosity to jump into it so that I can share my own side of the story and that I can affirm what their up to...

Finally, I was trapped in this courtroom drama waiting for that final judgment and that later on I can shout my kind of a thing...("YOU ARE SUCH AN ASSHOLE")

There was pain! No! there was a lot of pain. It was an unbearable pain...

Nothing can be more painful than a silent rejection of an innocent love willing to risk the pain...to an empty heart unready to commit passion...

But I stood still and fought for what I felt with steadfast faith...hoping to conquer fear...there was silent victor and my biggest shame...

I have all the reasons to hate you...I have all the angst to curse you... Whenever there is a need to be with you I wish I would simply die since YOU ARE ONLY DENYING ME TO YOUR FRIENDS for a fleeting moment to escape from hatred and pain...

I know it's hard...but I can make it and will get through this...