MORTAL SIN

In Roman Catholic moral theology, a mortal sin, as distinct from a venial sin, must meet all of the following conditions:

Its subject must be a grave (or serious) matter.
It must be committed with full knowledge, both of the sin and of the gravity of the offense (no one is considered ignorant of the principles of the moral law, which are inborn as part of human knowledge, but these principles can be misunderstood in a particular context).
It must be committed with deliberate and complete consent, enough for it to have been a personal decision to commit the sin.

That definition of mortal according to Wikipedia is true enough to ponder.

People commit mortal sins...I do commit mortal sins. Right now I commit mortal sin.

I do not know why in this hell world of mine I am doing...all I know is I am very happy and I am in a world of make believe.

I love him even if I am committing mortal sin. I love him because I know I am enjoying every bit of it.

I do not care if people will curse me for what I had done...I am ready to face consequences...I am happy. I am a fool of this one liner experience of sin.

To my dear God who is the source of love, please understand of my wrong doing...I am sorry for whatever acts I am doing right now...

Please forgive my sins...

BABAE KAMI

Babae kami
Hindi pagkaing sa mesa ihahain
Babalatan, hihimayin
Pampuno ng tiyan
O bagay lang sa basurahan...

Babae kami
Hindi manikang
Lalaruin, huhubaran
Bibihisan, ikukulong sa kuna
O ididisplay sa eskaparate.

Babae kami
Hindi lupang dudungkalan ng tanso
Hiyas at ginto
Tatamnan at iiwanan
Pagkatapos ng ani
Hahayaang magputik
Aapak-apakan o gagawing
Kandungan ng mga kalansay.

Babae kami
Tao rin naman
Hindi robot o basahan
Hindi kaserola o kubeta
Hindi panaginip na walang isip
O imahen na hahabulin
Sa lumilipad na ulap.

Babae kami
Nagluluwal ng sanggol
Na tagapagmana ng mundo
Marunong kaming umaninag
Ng hugis sa araw at gabi
Marunong maghimay
Ng kulay ng bahaghari.

Babae kami
Marunong sumalo
Sa mga kaluluwang babagsak
Sa pusong maalalahanin
Marunong lumaban
At magwasto ng baligtad
Habang naghahardin
Sa ikagaganda ng daigdig.

THE SWEETNESS OF DOING NOTHING

I remember an OPM SONG which has the lyrics " heto ka na naman kumakatok sa aking pintuan...muling nghahanap ng makakausap" This is exactly related to my entry for this month, I guess a last entry for this month...

Why that lyrics of a song relates to my entry because I am here in front of my NEO (my lappy's name) sharing some thoughts which could help me and my online friends ponder...

I always remember that lyrics whenever I talk to them especially my bessy BBTOTZ. I am really knocking her time out of my stupidity on love, life, career and what ever life will bring...

I love my online friends...I could firmly say that I find them sweet even if we are doing nothing... I find them sweet because they loved to listen to your angst in life...learnt from me a simple computer operations...laughed with me even if I don't have jokes to share with...and most of all understood and stood by me when hypocrites on Pinoy Koneksyon did some stupid things against me.

For now, I guess my online friends are the best thing that I have...especially BEEBBLES, BLOSSOMS, SISSY JOY,. FRANS, KUYA WAFFU,MHYA, KHATE, MAMI CATZ, MAE, ANTIGO and a lot more...( I may have more space to mention all of them but I guess I am so lazy to type not to mention also that I am sleepy by now...)

Being sweet is like being loyal and the respect is there...thank you for being with me guys in our everyday chit chatting...Kahit saang lupalop ng mundo kayo...still we have the same purpose----TO CHAT AND TO CHAT AND TO CHAT.

Kaibigan ko, that's why a bahay kubo is made to let you know that I do care of our friendship....ewan ko lang sa inyo...(lolz) (;bog) (;kill) ko ang hindi...

For now, will take a nap...laglag na mata kow......Love you ALIENZ!

LETTING GO (

When the kisses are dry
and the smile is faked
when voices are indecipherable
and happiness is defeated by pain
let it go though it deeply hurts

when truth is ignored
and lies are embraced
when promises are forgotten
and love is lost
let go though it deeply hurts

when caress are not reciprocated
and presence not welcomed
when tears keep coming
and smiles are seldom seen
let go though it deeply hurts

when trust is betrayed
ans selfishness arises
when thoughts are worthless
and passion fades
let go though it deeply hurts

free yourself from the bondage of pain
and gradually bid the past
open your soul to new beginnings
and teach your heart to beat again

REFLECTIONS #1

Our self secrets are like a magical silver cup. It grows dull if uncared for, shine brightly if polished and will dazzle when you focus light on them. Just like our characters, if not cared for, nourished and nurtured you will end up criminal along paths of life.

For me to know that I find difficulty in describing myself, we need to ask other people to make aware that we need to change for the better, to discover our weaknesses and the strengths to grow maturely.

I am fortunate enough for God had given me such wonderful people to show my imperfections, to struggle for change and as a child of God, a daughter, a sister,a friend and a servant of Him. These special people will always reside in my heart, whatever the time of the day, whatever the traffic conditions.

GOODBYE'S ARE NOT FOREVER

Last night I slept very early because of uneasiness felt . It was an unusual feeling since my EX broke up with me. After a year of not entertaining any love life status, I tried to enter into a relationship which is not as clear as the water in the river. My relationship with him brought me light, happiness and excitement every time I talk to him online. I was indeed very happy knowing that he loves me more than I do... I know its hard falling in love to a person you never saw personally, but goodness to reality I love him so much.
Every morning when I wake up, I always read his text messages on my phone telling me how much he loves me. With all the text messages sent to me, I believed that he really love me. I enjoyed the feeling of being in love. I was happy.

But good things last for a reason you do not know. Maybe because you are too occupied and over shadowed with the feeling and thought of love. I know that love is never letting go, Love has to be true, but most of all, love has to be known amongst each other.

I guess love has millions of definitions because all of us has a different definition of love and is never the same. That's why mine never made to last. It wasn't perfect as I wished and longed for...but I am still thankful I had given myself a second chance. A chance that maybe I will be nourishing and will be perfected.

To you Bhe, I may not be the person you expected for but I can be the person who will cherish and love you, like no other people can do..and I want you to know that you come to love not by finding the perfect person…but seeing an imperfect person perfectly...

HOW DO I LOVE THEE?

How do I love thee with all my heart ?
When you only brought me headaches everyday?
How do I love thee?
When selfishness of your time arises?
How do I love thee?
When you are enjoying with other web friends?
How do I love thee?
When only a simple hi is given to me?
How do I love thee?
When you are but sensitive to the feelings of others?
How do I love thee?
When lies are embraced?
How do I love thee?
When only part of you is known...?

LEADER OF THE BAND (FOR MY LATE FATHER)

SAD TO BELONG TO SOMEONE ELSE WHEN THE RIGHT ONE COMES ALONG...

GOT FRUSTRATED BIG TIME...

I cannot think of any other words...but I was really hurt and frustrated big time...I thought I can overcome things like this... Anyway, bad karma is out there...:( I will be posting more when I am okay...:( for now let it be a thought that we cannot please everybody...

EWAN

SEATTLE’S BEST MOA…

Di ko maintindihan lately ang nararamdaman ko. Sa sobrang dami ng pumapasok sa utak ko na pakiramdam ko magrarally na sya sa Plaza Miranda. May mga pangyayari sa buhay ko ngayon na di na kayang ipaliwanag kahit ng pinakamatalinong taong kilala ko. (buhay pa po yung taong matalino). Sinubukan ko na rin magpatingin sa espesyalista baka sakaling maibigay nila ang kasagutang bumabagabag sa kaloob looban ng isip ko, ngunit sila man ay bigo rin. Naglakad-lakad ako. Nagmuni-muni at sa haba ng nilakad ko, sa wakas may natisod akong paraan para maipaliwanag ang kaguluhang nagaganap sa utak ko. Sa katunayan di lang isa, kundi isang dosena at isa…

1. hindi dapat hinahanapan ng paliwanag ang mga nararamdaman ng puso dahil ito ay magiging katulad nalang ng sipon na tumutulo kahit na di ka suminga.

2. huwag pagkaabalahan ang sangkaterbang idinidikta ng isip dahil malamang sa malamang magiging kaklase mo si Senadora Santiago at sabihin mo na ring “I lied..hahahha!”

3. itapon sa kawalan ang mga walang kwentang iniisip dahil makakabara lang ito sa daloy ng trapiko sa EDSA.

4. mas makakabuting tumingin sa kawalan dahil nakakapahinga ang utak kaysa tumingin sa harapan na puro kaplastikan ng mundo ang dumaraan.

5. ipikit ang mata kung di ito ginagamit para di agad tumakbo sa utak ang mga nakikita na malamang maging sanhi ng sangkaterbang muta.

6. mas cool ang tumambay ng walang kausap kaysa pumagitna sa huntahang payabangan lang naman ang babagsakan.

7. uminom ng kape na walang asukal para maramdaman ang pait at tumigil ang pag-iisip ng matatamis. (parang walang konek, pero isama na din)

8. sumakay sa aircon na bus at sabay sigaw ng INIT!! Wala na bang ilalakas yan!?

9. humanap ng kausap na kahit na anong sabihin mo wala kang makikitang reaction sa mukha kundi umayon lang sa lahat ng sasabihin mo. (maraming ganyan ngayon)

10. magtulog-tulugan sa jeep para makalimutan ng driver na di ka pa bayad sabay baba.

11. humiga sa gitna ng riles ng mrt para mapansin ka at maka-upo sa wakas.

12. maghanap ng katextmate na walang ginawa kundi magforward ng mga forwarded ding messages.

13. maglub-lub sa ilog pasig at wag na magbanlaw para maramdaman mo kung gaano kabaho sa Pilipinas


natuyo na ang utak ko para na itong lupang inabot ng el nino at di na nagpa-function. Sabi nga ng kaibigan ko, kailangan daw laging hahasain ang utak para di ito kalawangin. Na-imagine ko lang kapag kinalawang ang utak ko, para na din akong dead man walking noon. Hahahhaha!

MORAL LESSON : IWASANG MANOOD NG TELENOBELA DAHIL ISA ITO SA MGA NANGUNGUNANG DAHILAN PARA KALAWANGIN ANG UTAK NIYO.

26 RANDOM THINGS ABOUT ME

My 26th Birthday is fast approaching!

I’m not a party girl nor fond of any birthday related celebrations though I love organizing other's birthday party except my own. I don’t know why but I have this wierd feelings celebrating my own birthday party or maybe because I was not used to it in the first place.
My idea of a birthday celebration is simple. So simple, that I couldn’t even afford to send invites to those whom I wanted to celebrate with. hahahah weird!!! I’m a last minute girl. I cram. I always do and I terribly hate it, but I don't come to work late... My perfect birthday celebration is dining out with my family. No trappings, no gifts, no cake, no singing and all sorts of those birthday stuff everybody is busy about. I want exchanges of experiences, of what went through my kid’s days ,these small talks matter to me the most.

As I introspect my 26th years of existence, I thought of randomly listing down 26 things about ME…

1. I know how to play musical instrument like guitar.
2. I love Bob Ong books, wish I could follow his steps.
3. I’m a bookworm. I wish I have the luxury of time to read everything.
4. I love caramel mocha ice cream...I cannot resist my cravings.
5. I’m a catholic but I’m bored with repititious type of praying. My prayers are conversational.
6. I am a writer.
7. I dreamed of becoming a pilot.
8. I love to cook and my specialty is chicken adobo and new york bread.
9. I am a movie fan.
10. I came to learn ice tea and its goodness only after college.
11. I read the editorial first before the headlines.
12. I only have one password for all my bank accounts (parang andami!!! hahahahha)
13. I never leave home without a watch.
14. I’m a true blue waraynon!
15. I am an OC.
16. I keep a journal of all sorts….travel, photos, expenses, etc.
17. I love to travel. It’s the best form of education!
18. I hate government forms that specifically indicates USE BLACK INK ONLY.
19. I’m a beach babe even if I don’t have the best body. I love to swim.
20. I only drink red wine and vodka cruisin'.
21. I am a proud dentist
22. I don’t believe in courtship and putting your best foot forward to impress your crush, love or whatever you call it.
23. I am a techie.
24. I love to chat
25. I got hazel brown eyes
26. I stand at about 5' TALL

SILENCE...

LIFE IS BUT A DIM AND INTANGIBLE DESTINY... AN ECHOING DISTANCE THAT RISES FROM INNOCENCE...STRUGGLE TO FAME AND GLORY...BUT THEN IT ALWAYS GOES BACK TO WHERE IT COMES FROM...SILENCE.

When we are young, death seems to be a far country, a hazy stretch of land from across the windy shores of youth. How wonderful when we were young, we think we can rule the world. You feel like someday will slay dragon, conquer some land and reign in the kingdom of God.

Death and life. There has always been something deeply fascinating in this unity of opposite, something that touches, that always moves us to yell out for understanding in the middle of the wide, sometimes desolates valley of life.

The death of anyone often comes to us, a reminder that life does not go on forever as we almost imagined in the brave and free world of younger days. It will come to stop and from that moment a great shoreless, buttonless mystery begins.So death can come swiftly in the night. I remember a friend who told me, "the force that flows through the green fuse drive the flowers, drives my green age." So, when someone passes away, something that you value, the companionship, the communion of kindred spirits becomes lost forever.

All the shared sorrows and joys all the common moments dance in a mist before your eyes will flee away. They never returns back, it always goes back from where it comes from...SILENCE.

Since life comes only once, I must plan and work hard, and value time as well, coz when my time comes to an end I should have something to leave on ----a life I should be proud of and ready to face HIM in heaven.

CAMPAIGN FEVER....2010 ELECTION

Yesterday was the start of election campaign for the year 2010. It was my first time to see how the candidates tried to make their best they can to encourage people to vote for them. But for me, even if how much candidates tried , I do have my solid vote for NOYNOY and MAR tandem this coming election. My friends had ask me why do I have to chose the tandem NOY-MAR. I immediately answered them, "simply because they are less evil compared to other candidates". I want them simply because NOY has to continue the legacy of his parents whom we called heroes...they are a good example of good citizens in our country. What goodness can Villar, Perlas, Gordon, Erap and the rest aspirants do to our country? Villar has C-5 controversy which I personally believe he got a lot of money from his subdivision...(nakita ko at nadaanan ko ang c-5 extension na yan where in sobrang haba at paikot-ikot na daanan sa kanyang subdibisyon) how can I vote for him if he had just started to become evil on his own way... some may throw on NOY of the LUISITA Massacre... but I got an answer for that on my previous post. I need not elaborate on how it happens coz it wasn't NOY who killed the people involved in it. We don't need a leader who is intelligent (look at GMA), we don't need an experienced leader coz they are actually trapos...they are also experienced in corruption. What we need is a leader who has good faith, who has integrity to lead, who has fear in God, who will not corrupt the money of the Filipino Citizenz, and who can actually set a good example to his followers. NOy may not be a perfect candidate of course WE are not perfect but perfectly we can choose a better person to lead in our country perfectly.

AN ANSWER TO A BLOG POST...

http://www.truthaboutnoynoy.com/

Hanggang Ngayon Di Pa Nai-distribute ang Hacienda Luisita sa Farmers
Monday, 07 December 2009 09:13

CLAIM: Hanggang ngayon di pa nai-distribute ang Hacienda Luisita to its farmers
TRUTH: Hacienda Luisita offered its genuine farmer-beneficiaries a Stock Distribution Option (SDO). The farmers received this option in formal referendum in 1989
The Stock Distribution Option (“SDO”) is an option provided under Section 3(a) of the Comprehensive Agrarian Reform Law for a corporation owning an agricultural land, like HLI, as a mechanism to distribute shares of capital stock, as opposed to small parcels of land, to qualified farmer-beneficiaries.
Under the proposed SDO of Hacienda Luisita, the farmer-beneficiaries will become stock holders of the corporation, and in effect, co-owners of the hacienda. The features of the SDO include:
1. Acquisition and distribution, on the basis of number of days worked during the year, the entire block of 118,391,976.85 shares of capital stock in HLI
2. Four (4) seats in the Board of Directors allotted to the farmer-beneficiaries;
3. Share in the production equivalent to 3% of gross sales of HLI, in addition to what the farmers receive as regular salaries and wages; and
4. Award of free residential home lots of not less than 240 square meters each to family beneficiaries.

HLI entered into a Memorandum of Agreement (“MOA”) with the TDC and the genuine farmer-beneficiaries, which embodied the basics and the mechanics of the SDO. In a referendum conducted on 24 October 1989 under DAR Secretary Philip Ella Juico, 92.6% of farmer-beneficiaries approved the SDO. In another referendum conducted by the PARC under DAR Secretary Miriam Defensor-Santiago, 96.27% of the farmer-beneficiaries voted for the adoption of the SDO. The MOA was formally approved by the PARC on 21 November 1989.

I DO NOT KNOW THE DIGNITY OF HIS BIRTH...

Beginning of the year 2010 when I received a text saying that NOI, your cousin got an accident---motorbike accident. I was horrified upon receiving this message. I thought it was just a joke...but its not after 2 days of being medicated in the intensive care unit in the hospital of AFP, his body rested. I actually miss my first cousin coz he is the sweetest cousin I ever had...Anyway, here are the pictures I got last burial of him. He is actually serving the armed forces of the Philippines. Buried in LIBINGAN NG MGA BAYANI. Noi, may your soul rest in peace!

TOTALLY HAPPY...

Got my passport again...after having such difficulties way back 2007... good for me i was able to travel places which I love to do... i am so happy getting it back again...thanks to those who had help me...now i can go anywhere i want to...! and wait, i am happy i will be extending for two months my visa here.... my visa will end on January 25 of this year and will have to extend on Friday for 2 months extension. thanks a lot!

foods i love to eat...

i love this food...i just can't get enough!hehehe...know what are the names of these...? hmmm...read it na lang---that is if you can read it (hehehe).

ANOTHER TRAPO IN THE GOVERNMENT...

I thought Chiz Escudero is not a trapo...he is one of the senators I voted last election and admired his personality...but now I am starting to hate him...I just don't know what motives he has when he resigned from his party (NPC). I am starting to wonder...maybe because Danding Cojuangco will not support his Presidency bid this 2010 election? that, I do not know...anyway, I am more confident of who to vote this coming election...I will vote for NOYNOY coz he is less corrupt than the others. What we need for a leader in our government right now is less evil and will be mindful of the future of our young ones. We don't need an economist to govern our land and prosper our economy...we don't need an intelligent leader...we should vote wisely.

TYPHOON ONDOY...the experience...the aftermath...

Everyone is talking about the typhoon ondoy...a lot of people suffered from this disastrous ondoy...so much has been said about it...everyone is blaming the government about it...victims are asking help...how can we help in our own little way?

I had never seen such typhoon in national capital region like this. Much more had not seen from my very own eyes and experienced walking along ortigas extension with a flooded water last saturday (september 26, 2009). I don't have any choice but to walk in a flooded area coz if not I will be a helpless mother to my son and a helpless daughter to my mom on that day. I strongly had fought the fear of being drowned in that half-bodied flood water. I can never imagine that from that day on I will have a very traumatic experience of the flood which will be kept in my heart and mind.

Actually, our place was not affected but I was able to experience walking the flooded area of ortigas extension. I can never forget that tragic experience. How much more the affected areas and the people who also fought for their lives that day. I can never imagine it will abruptly happened.

After that disastrous typhoon, I was able to go to evacuation centers and the pictures above are the aftermath of the said typhoon. We were able to give relief goods. I had seen straight from my very own eyes how the people lost their living. I had seen also that our government is doing no good of the rescue operations and the distributions of the relief goods. There are only part of the victims area are given (coded) and what about the other victim areas? It is very sad to know that less expectations can be thought of our government in times like this. When will our government learn from this disastrous calamity? I think my queries will remain unanswered until the next one will happen...(so sad)

ANG AKING NEYBOR...

Eto ang librong authored by BOB ONG ang pinakapaborito kong author na pinoy. Sa kanya ako na inspired at matutong magsulat ng mga kung anu-ano. Gusto kong ibahagi sa inyo ang buod at nilalaman ng librong ito; pag nabasa mo ang title ng berdeng libro sa taas it means you are a good reader...hehehe. Promote ko muna kuya Bob ang iyong libro dito sa blog ko ng kumita naman tayo...hahahaha! teka m muna wag kayong ma excite masyado sa book na ito, kwento ko muna kung sino si Bob Ong...ahihihi kapitbahay namin siya...swerte ko pala at neybor kami ng idol ko.Ipinanganak si Bob Ong sa Quezon City, yun lang ang alam ko hehehe, kasi nga kapitbahay ko siya at bawal nga pala magreproduce ng book niya in any form kaya limited ang aking pagkukuwento ng talambuhay niya baka ako ay makulong, mahirap na po e kapitbahay lang kami nito madali akong mahuli...hehehehe bigyan ko n lang kayo ng excerpt sa book na eto. From this book matutunan mo ang mga kwentong chalk ni bob ong...may mga ilang katanungan siya dito at tinatanong niya kung :
1. bakit namamalo si Miss Uyehera?
2. At tanong niya ulet sa librong eto kung may mga notebook bang lumilipad?
3. BAkit masakit sa ulo ang Mathematics?
4. Bakit may mga taong nakapikit sa litrato?
5. Masarap ba ang Africhado?
6 Sino si Tigang?
7. Bakit may mga classroom na kulang ang upuan?
8. Masama bang mag-isip nang malalim habang naglalakad?
9. Saan ang Ganges River sa Pilipinas?
10. Bakit may mga umaakyat ng overpass pero hindi tumatawid? Dito mo sa librong ito malalaman ang mga kasagutan ng mga katanungang iyan na walang ibang sumagot kundi siya rin lang....Nasagot niya yun ng No Calculator. No dictionaries. No erasures. No cheating, sabay sabing Oopps, time's up? Pass your papers... hehehe di ba nakakatuwa ang librong ito. Kaya doon sa mahilig magbasa at makilala si BOB ONG, grab your copy now at any bookstores nationwide. Available siya pati ang iba pang mga libro niya na;
BAKIT BALIKTAD MAGBASA NG LIBRO ANG MGA PILIPINO?
STAINLESS LONGGANISA
MAC ARTHURANG
PABORITONG LIBRO NI HUDAS
ALAMAT NG GUBAT

Pramis i garanti u dat it its nyz!

A WALK TO REMEMBER

Dito na naman ako nag-iisip ng mga bagay na may katuturan naman..haha! kala niyo puro seryos lang etong blog ko na to...well...well. well. naalala ko lang ng ako ay grumadweyt sa aking masters degree sa rizal technological university...sa labas ng mandaluyong ha...di sa looban, naisipan kong magpapicture baka sakaling may magkagusto sa akin... hmmm. di naman ako masyadong sikat sa graduate studies ko pero ang magustuhan ka ng isang bading at isang tomboy...aba iba na yun. biruin mo ngsuot ng mas seksing damit ang tomboy kesa sa akin...(ako po ang nakablue sa pic...hehehehe. at sa taas naman ang bading na nagkagusto sa akin ng gabing iyon lang ha?) kidding aside, i have this two greatest classmate and friend in graduate studies who became my mentor now. i am just lucky i have them... while walking in the aisle of stardom...stardom ba yun? di ah...ikaw shokz ulyanin ka na talaga... graduation ball yun noh?... it was a dream come true coz it was a walk not to fame...but a walk to remember where your greatest friends are there who will make your life so meaningful....

BEYOND COMPARE

After the evolution of text messages and electronics mail I still manage to write a very special token of love for my everloving hon who is in his special mission for a few days. I hope only a few days as what he told me coz by now I am in mixed emotions how to deal with this kind of feeling I am having...thinking of his safety all through out his mission. I am not there to support him whatever he is doing...but I wrote a simple note for him to always remember me wherever his mssion is. I know that he will come back for me...
With the kind of life and the nature of work James my hon had, I am always in constant prayer that he will be guided with our Lord. I hope he is always in good shape.

IT'S JOKE TIME

AGAW-BUHAY
Nakaupo sa tabi ng kanyang asawang agaw-buhay si Juan.Hawak hawak niya ang kamay nito at nararamdaman ni Juanna hindi na magtatagal at babawian na ng buhay ang kanyang asawa."Juan, bago ako mamatay, mayroon akong gustong ipagtapatsa iyo.""Mahal, huwag ka ng magsalita at makakasama pa sa iyo.""Pero Juan, kailangan talagang malaman mo na........""Sssshhhh, kung ano man iyon ay hindi na mahalaga, angimportante ay nasa tabi mo ako sa huling sandali morito sa mundo.""Juan, nais kong ipagtapat sa iyo na pinag-taksilan kitasana ay patawarin mo ako.""Alam ko iyon, kaya nga kita NILASON."

ACTUAL SENTENCES FOUND IN PATIENT'S MEDICAL CHARTS at PHILIPPINE GENERALHOSPITAL (PGH):
1. Patient has chest pain if she lies on her left side for over a year.
2. On the second day the knee was better, and on the third day itdisappeared.
3. She has no rigors or shaking chills, but her husband states she was veryhot in bed last night.
4. The patient is tearful and crying constantly. She also appears to bedepressed.
5. The patient has been depressed since she began Seeing me in 1993.
6. Discharge status: Alive but without permission.
7. The patient refused autopsy.
8. The patient has no previous history of suicides.
9. She is numb from her toes down.
10. While in ER, she was examined, X-rated and sent home.
11. The skin was moist and dry.
12. Occasional, constant, infrequent headaches.1
3. Patient was alert and unresponsive.
14. Rectal examination revealed a normal size thyroid.
15. She stated that she had been constipated for most of her life, untilshe got a divorce.
16. The lab test indicated abnormal lover function.
17. The patient was to have a bowel resection. However, he took a job as astockbroker instead.
18. Skin: somewhat pale but present.
19. Patient has two teenage children, but no other abnormalities.

KNOW YOURSELF

It can be interesting as well as useful to think about the way we define ourselves as individuals. We tend to focus on particular facets: size, gender, vocation, material possessions, family name, where we were educated or grew up, things like that.
Some of us perceive and define ourselves solely in negative terms: our incapability, unworthiness, faults, past, behavior, comparing ourselves unfavorably to other people or against unrealistic ideals. If we define ourselves in such limited or deprecatory terms, we are very far indeed from true self-acceptance.
In my own case, I try to recognize and acknowledge the whole me.. That includes the sum of all my experiences, good and bad. It concerns my present reality: not the me I want to be or hope to be, nor the me I think others see, and certainly not the former me who no longer exists. By taking a hard, cool appraisal of myself, I'm able to make sound decisions about my life and where I need to go. We should know ourselves because these are the only things we can truly know. We cannot get inside anyone else's situation. We can better judge ourselves.